This post is going to be about how much I love Shawn, so if you don't want to read it, cuz you think it's too mushy gushy, then don't. Because it will be long.
Shawn..
We've been going out for a year and 3 months, soon to be a year and 4 months on your birthday.. in TEN days. We've gotten to know each other from top to bottom. We're so close to each other it's unbelievable. No one else can make me smile like you can. Every time I hear your voice, I'm automatically happy.
I know I had to move, and it's not my fault. I'd rather be with you. Of course, you know that. The next time I get to see you is in a month. And after that not for a long time. It's hard not being with you everyday like we use to be. It's hard not knowing you are right there holding me and comforting me.
Sweetie, the problem is I need you. I'm nothing without you. And I don't feel stupid saying that. In the past we've gotten through everything. You always said you would love me and be with me forever, no matter what, even if we had to struggle to get there. People have told me that no matter how far you are, if you really love someone, you can get through anything. And that's the way I feel with you.
There's nobody that could ever replace you. In my heart, you are the most wonderful person I have ever met. I could never love anybody the same way I love you. You are different from all of the other guys I have gone out with. They just don't compare to you. I just don't want to ever think about any other guys. If I could pick any guy in the world, I would definately pick you over anybody.
Whenever I use to be upset about a breakup with some dumb guy, all my good friends would tell me I'd find the right person someday. They always said don't worry, someday you will. Yes, and that day came Shawn. My dream guy is you.
Ever since I was a little girl, I always dreamt of the perfect guy having brown or blonde hair, being just about the same height as me, not being toothpick skinny, funny and sweet, having beautiful eyes, and just a smile to die for. The perfect guy would be caring, loving, adorable, and he would always be there for me.
All my dreams came true. I met you in coincidence in art class. I'm glad I took that class. Because not meeting you would have been the worst mistake. I'm just happy that I get to be the lucky girl that you call your girlfriend. It sure means a lot to me.
I especially love how everybody else knows, besides us, that we'll be together forever. And they always compare our stories to theirs, and they tell me we'll definately grow old with each other, because we have so much love and trust for each other. I could be with you all day sitting around doing nothing and I'd be the happiest girl ever. No matter what we do I love you, even if we are just on the phone talking long distance.
We are far from each other, and it will be like that for a while. And I understand that. It upsets me, but I'd rather have you than nothing. Talking on the phone, hearing your voice, makes everything much better and worthwhile. Babe, I love you, and I never want to be apart from you. We are like a pair that can't be separated. Everybody thinks that. But the most important part is that we think that.
Sweetie, I love you so much that I want to have babies with you, have your first house with you, come home and cook dinner for you, clean the house.. I just simply want to grow old with you. I want to tuck you in and cuddle up right next to you. I want to take care of you. For the rest of my life. I'll always want to. My feelings for us will never change. After buying me a $500 ring, and me losing it, and you forgiving me, you must love me.
I love you so much sweetie. I never want that to change. I wanna marry you someday and become Clarissa Heaton! I wanna be your babey always n forever. | 
